Can't Bend that Way

I have a new morning duty. Me, Adam, and Jacob get to walk Heather and Joe to school every morning. Never thought I'd be used as a chaperone, but hey, I don't mind. Still gray out today, still raining. Imagine that. We''l probably get our snow in June...

Band was boring because non of us actually want to be there. He refuses to pick songs that are within our ability to play, or even remotely pleasing. I have to say, I have learned Mr. Deenen was so much better a band teacher than we EVER gave him credit for.

Another sub in Language Arts. YES YES YES YES YES!!! She gave us our assignment; we had 45 minitues to answer 4 questions and write a one page "composition." It took me 15. I started reading my book, andshe was like "Rachael (don't know how she knew my name) don't you have work to do?" and I told her I was done. Then she asked to see my paper. (She didn't freaking believe me!) and just said "oh" and walked away. Sigh....

I had to move my spot, because Brett came over and sat behind me and I'm pretty much allergic to smoke, so I had to move. Before I left though, the kid next to him was like "You smell like smoke," and the idiot's like "weed smoke or cigarette smoke?" and the other kid's like "uhhh cigarette...." and then brett was like "oh good, I don't want to get caught."

Honestly. You can't get much stupider than that kid, and not just because he's foolish enough to do drugs. Though that's certainely bad enough.

Lunch....I actually had some. Go PB &J and celery sticks. My mom's so thoughtful.

We rewatched the Al Gore Movie in World Regions. Like it didn't put us all to sleep the first time. Oh well. I got a nap out of it and finished my book. Then I actually did my homework in seminar, because I went to Mrs. Pangman's but the internet was down. And my math wasn't going anywhere.

Went home, ate tuna salad, bothered Kirsten, and did my physics project. Oh yeah, and watched american idol. Now I'm going to bed. What an eventful day...

And I did Yoga. I'm looking at the forms I'm supposed to be able to do, and I just shake my head sadly. Sure I want to be toned just as much as the next girl, but injuring myself is not high on my priorities list.

Gloomy Days Bring Smiles

Yesterday I was insanely cheerful (for me) and it was raining so hard, and it was cold. I didn't feel like going to band at all, but it was fun anyways. We had a sub in language arts. Then we had a fire drill, and as soon as the whole school was out in the field it began to pour down freezing rain. And everybody started shreiking and running back in the school. Adam, me and Kirsten (I don't care about proper grammar!) just laughed. Then I had lunch, was freezing, had world region, where we finished the boring Al Gore movie, and Seminar, where I finally got help with my math from when I was absent.

So I'm all caught up and now you are too. Me and Adam walked home, and it was pouring again, and we got completely soaked. Really, who cares. It felt good. I got home, changed out of my sopping clothes, finished off the rest of the chocolate chip cookies ( i really don't know why my mom expected them to last more than two days) and did my homework, rounding off the evening with the yoga I'm actually keeping up on. I left my hair wet. Rain isn't so bad.

If last thursday was the worst day of my life, then today is the best. It is not as rainy outside, though it is gray, and I started off today cheerful enough, though not like yesterday. But today is better. My life is fixed again.

I have a soccer meeting next period, lunch. Sigh...I don't want to go. Ohhhh well. My cleats should still fit from last year, and my shinguards are downstairs. Uh oh. Cleats in closet. Heh....

Later-

Ok that was the fastest soccer meeting ever. We went in, he gave us a piece of a paper to sign, read one sentence off the paper, told us we'd run a lot and let us go. Finally, a teacher he realizes we know how to read. Poor Mr. Macias. I went in to go buy Kirsten lunch (he sells muffins and candy and stuff) and he was about to start the track meeting. He, adam, and Jacob are all like "Your doing track!!!! YAY!" and I was like....uhh sorry I'm a soccer traitor......

oh well. I suffered through gym, it was raining again, and went to pyhsics were the rest of the class got handed back their quizzes worth about 50 pts. Every single person in the class, except 2 failed. and those 2 got D's. I had been absent friday, and she told me she was excusing me from the quiz. So everyone else got a failed grade and I got off scott-free. Wow. That says something for missing school. I should get upset more often....

It rained the whole way home. Me and Adam passed the chapel and his dad drove by in an army truck, said something obnoxious when he saw us walking, flipped adam off and drove away. Typical. That about made my day.

Oh yeah, and when i got home there was still two chocolate chip cookies left. Today I actually have no complaints.
Well one. I have tons of homework that I have to go do now. But I'm happy, and I have something to look forward to again. Hmmm... I need happy song lyrics here....

My tea's gone cold,
I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey,
Put your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad

Push the door,
I'm home at last
and I'm soaking through and through
Then you handed me a towel
and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down now,
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me
and I want to thank you
for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you
Is having the best day of my life

ok fine not the happiest ever. but close enough for me.

Cheaper than a Therapist

Today was actually a good day believe it or not. I woke up somewhat earlier than usual, lazed around, played another couple hours of zelda....

Then later we went to Heidelberg base (i know, me going somewhere....shocking) and they have something that half resembles a bookstore. Well, at least, they have chairs and it doesn't take half your life for a cup of cofee.

So anyways, I sat down with a semi-tall stack of books, for there really wasn't enough of a selection for my usual mountain, and read a bit of some, then bought two. Rather odd, but i felt so much better about my whole sucky week after doing so. Sales guy was obnoxious though. Still, 15 bucks. Can't get much cheaper therapy than that eh?

And my mom informed me that when she pre-ordered Harry Potter she also just randomely bought me the next two Avalon books in Hardcover. And I don't have to pay for them. Huh. Still, I'll go halvsies cause I feel bad.

Dodoodododo.

Then we went to this Diner called Mandy's Diner, that was really cute, and attempted to look american. It was like this little railway car sunk sorta in the ground with a door that's handle was at my knee. And our waiter was this burly german guy that hit on every girl in there. Lydia, I couldn't have taken you there. The table in front of us had four german teenage boys, as did the booth behind us. You would have drooled whilewaiting for your food.

which was actually quite good. My evening was spent munching away at my caeser salad and swping my brother's French fries. Excuse me. German. Overall, not bad. Then I came home, watched lost, and did an ab workout. Anna, I'm actually becoming skinny. Not that you can tell through all my baggy clothes, but still. i have no endurance, because I'm not running as exercise, but I'm strong and my stomach's flat. Score!

I think I'm going to play soccer. And this year, I'm going to be good at it.

My lips went J. Lo

Most of you know what this means. Yup it happened again. I look like a mixture of Angelina Jolie and a blowfish. For those of you who haven't seen me in this state, I shall explain.

Last year, I was devastated when we thought I was allergic to shrimp, because one day when I was really upset about something my mom bought me a ton of fresh shrimp to cheer me up and an hour later my lips inflated. So I didn't eat anymore shrimp. duh. Then one night I got upset again and my mom was trying to comfort me and I was just like "Uhh mom, it feels like my lips just turned into balloons." So I went in the hall and the mirror showed me these giant pink things obscuring the bottom part of my face. This was three days after I had got done watching Monster-in-Law, and I looked just like Jennifer Lopez when she ate the nuts. *shudder*

Now both of the previous times my face calmed down by school. Not today however. I woke up and I no longer could see the whites of my eyes. I haven't seen so vivid a red in a long time. Also, when I am angry or worried, my eyes change to a really weird bright green. I had Christmas lights for eyeballs. And my lips were still humongous.

So here I am, at home, missing school because I'm waiting for my face to deflate. Interesting...


I'm allergic to being sad. This is so not good.

And no, I'm not posting any pictures. Sorry Adam.

My T.V ban is up. Now I'm debating whether to stay up and watch Conan or actually get some sleep today. Hmmmmm.....Conan definitely. Got to get my fun in before the weekend officially starts because I have sooooo much homework.

I'm feeling better now I think. Yesterday was just the worst possible day imaginable, but today I did yoga, read a book, and drowned myself in tea and oatmeal cookies. You were so right Mrs. Sullivan.

I'm going to be sad for quite a while. More than sad, heartbroken. But I'll live. I think.

"The River"

I've seen enough now
to know that beautiful things
don't always stay that way
I've done enough now
to know this beautiful place
isn't everything they say

Think to Much

"I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.
Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.I
t's not over.'
Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over."

...................................

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I don't know why I bother. Ever. With anything. I finally get to feeling good, my life seems fixed, set. Like nothing can go wrong. I'm happy. Then it all gets ripped away in the most brutal way possible. I lost all of you, in Michigan. I can hear from you, an email, a phone call. Your voices, but not your faces. It's not the same. I know it and you know it.

But I'm coming back. This summer. There is no way I'm not. I don't care if my parents say I can't, or if I don't have enough money. I'll spend my days doing nothing, buying nothing, saving my lunch money without my mom knowing, until I can come back.

Because i can't stay here. There's nothing for me here. I thought there might have been, was reaching that point again where I was beginning to be happy. Almost.

I am a fool. I assume things off of tiny instances, things that don't even matter. Then I force them to matter, in my head, morphing those pointless things into something that means the whole world to me. And then I discover how false it all is. And there is no more world. Just pain.

I have never felt more understanding of you Nicolette. At least you know what I'm talking about.

I can't wait. I can't wait to go home and do nothing but go to Border's three times a week, buying coffee and a lifetimes worth of books. Then ending the week with a jump in the Lake on saturday, or going to Chili's with whichever one of you happens to have come over that day, and exclaiming over the taste of the mushroom swiss burgers that I never get tired of.

And being able to sleep again.

Severe Repetition

Ok, now I'm seriously creeped out. Fellow michiganders, we will never forget the forever scarring memory map from 7th grade. Or at least studying for it. Well guess what.

I get to do it all over again.

Today Mrs. Flavan was just like "ok, you guys can start preparing for your final, because it's going to be difficult. you guys have to label 200 countries on a world map!"

OH NO!! *GASP* I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO DO THAT! Seriously! Mrs. Fitz's was waaaay harder and we were puny 7th graders! argh!!!!! That's not all. I...have....to do...a.....project.....on....

Algeria. you got it.

I'm going to kick something.

Fortunately, I still have the remnants of my Algeria notecards somewhere. Not so fortunately, they are hidden within the depths of my closet. Heh heh. The state of cleanliness in my closets didn't exactly stay that way. It never does, and my multiple dimensions speedily reformed. They are pretty dark and scary. (like your closet Lyds. lol) not to mention large. I'll be sure to bring a torch. And my brother's plastic lightsaber for good measure.

Today: .......

Uhh band, we watched drumline again. How many times have we all seen that now? still, not a bad movie. Went to Language Arts, and discovered that I had already completed today's assignment last night, cause i thought it was homework. So i got to read instead. I love it when that happens....

Well I pretty much summed up world regions. Seminar-bleh. I had nothing left to get done. Nap time....dododododo.

As for the rest, I went to the PX and bought visine. How exciting.

Beautifying

Ow ow ow! My mom just put one of those things on your nose that you rip off and it takes away blackheads and dirt. Well, it worked, but it hurts. How come other girls complain about how their moms won't let them do certain things to their faces to make them "look better" like plucking their eyebrows etc., but I'm the unwilling guinea pig for all my mom's hair, face experiments? She wonders why I never want to wear makeup....

Anyways, on a more cheerful note...

I FINSIHED MY HOMEWORK AFTER SIX HOURS!!! I'M FINALLY DONE! HA!!!!! This is what i get for procrastinating the whole weekend. Ooooohhhh well, it's done, though I'm going to fail my playing test tomorrow in band because my neighbors said it was too late for me to practice my clarinet at 7:00. Sigh...I've given up on them.

My mom's semi-healthy, Kirsten's actually going to school tomorrow, I'm not feeling like barfing, and Jacob's not dying anymore. Is this due to coming spring? Or just the fact that we've all missed so much school due to illness we couldn't possibly still have sickness in our bodies? Personally, I think it's the second one.

More news tomorrow....hopefully something will actually happen.

Spring in Winter

Winter? What winter? It's so sunny out, my eyes are about burned when I look out a window It's actually kinda nice not to be freezing, but I wanted snow. *grumble*

My brother is sooooo dead. He went over to friends house and spent the night without telling mom the phone number or calling or anything. So now he's back and it's like dooooooooom. I don't know whether to be sympathetic or laugh at him. What's with everybody getting grounded? I'm grounded from t.v. for DOING my homework (long story) and Adam's grounded but he won't tell me why, and now my brother....well, let's just say I won't be seeing him much for the next month or so.

I'm gonna miss Lost this week!! AHHHHH HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE?!?!?

Softball starts soon. And soccer. Still don't know which one to do, but I'll probably get roped into softball by everyone else. Sigh...I want tennis back. I'm actually sorta good at that at least. Hahaha you guys remeber when we went to nikki's tennis tournament? That was so embarrasing. Note to self: Stay away from water dispensers when Jamie's around.

Lalalala....I have absolutely nothing going on. Hmmm...and our fridge is empty. Crap, I'm starving. I could do my homework i suppose...yick. We finished watching Not Without My Daughter in class. It's no less depressing the second time.

Ok, I seriously need to hunt down food....

Good song

"The Trouble With Love Is"

Love can be a many splendid thing
Can’t deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses,
diamond rings
Dreams for sale
and fairy tales
It’ll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It’ll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It’s stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn’t care how fast you fall
And you can’t refuse the call
See you’ve got no say at all

Now I was once a fool it’s true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world’s a deeper blue
I’m sadder but I’m wiser too
I swore I’d never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn’t worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

Chorus
Every time I turn around
I think I’ve got it all figured out
My heart keep callin’
And I keep on fallin’
Over and over again
The sad story always ends the same
Me standin’ in the pourin’ rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

Feverish

The plague has come to the Nevinger household. My mom's like dead on the couch and I just got a fever. Blehhhh....I've been drinking hot tea like mad though. I'm thoroughly sick of it now, so I have to come up with something else to drink when I really get sick, which will probably we tomorrow. I feel so much better than I did this whole week though, which makes no sense, because I hadn't actually come down with anything this week, I just felt horrible. Now I AM sick I'm bouncing all over the place. Oh well. That won't last long.

My poor brother. I'm now insanely ahead of him in Twilight Princess, because first my mom accidentally bumped the transformer when he hadn't saved for a long time, and then dad did it when he got caught back up. Meanwhile I....heh heh. My poor bloodshot eyes. I took a break from that game and came over to stare at a computer screen. dodododododo.

Oh by the way Kirsten, please stop including Anti wrinkle cream with all my holiday presents. My mom saw the packet and thought it was a condom. I was like yeah mom, cause I keep so many of those just lying around....honestly. I never do anything I'm not supposed to, and she'll ask me questions like I'm a criminal, while my cussing brother with a girlfriend runs wherever he pleases all over the base. Sighhhh...

Anyways, my mom needs the computer now. Later.

Mouse + Potato = MousePotato

Finally this horrific week is OVER. I've never really had a worse one. Today, though is good. I got my extra credit for math turned in, finished my multimedia animations, so now I can help Heather finish hers, we had a sub in physics (NO MRS. SAPATKA!!! WHOOOOOOO!!!!) and got to watch a movie and do whatever the heck we wanted. Oh yeah, and in gym all we had to do was pretend to kick a soccer ball around so no biggie there. It's a three day weekend,and all the people, including Sarah, are finally coming back from creative connections. I don't know but none of us ever realized how much we would miss her silent presence during lunch in Mrs. Pangman's. Next year is going to suck so unbelievably much.

Two days of lazing about doing nothing but playing video games and sleeping. Ahhhhh....I love weekends....

That physics movie was crazy though. They got slightly famous people to bu on idiotic skits concerning the moon. Weird Al Yankovic was like the manager of company that makes items for people in space, so all these weird people were coming up to him with ideas of products. So this one guys like, "In space it's difficult to eat with all the food floating around. Well no more! All an astronaut really needs are the vitamins provided by an ordinary potato, and the protein from a field mouse! So if me lure Field mice into traps, astronauts could eat them with a healthy servings of potatoes and be fine! So just remember, M+P = MP!!"

Adam and I just looked at each other. The things that lady thinks up for us to watch....

THE WEEKS OVER!!! *CARTWHEEL* I can't actually do a cartwheel....sad i know...

Hurry Hurry all the Time

AUGH got so much homework! DIE PHYSICS! .....heh heh sorry. American Idol's on in half an hour and I'm sorta getting done with my math. Guess whose doing her physics during lunch tomorrow....not really I'll get it done. But UGH.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention yesterday..I got called down to the office after school, and when I got there they handed me this big bunch of flowers. In that infinitesimal moment before I read the card, I got really excited. Then I saw the card said "from dad." It was still sweet though...and my mom hasn't managed to murder the flowers yet. Mrs. Black thumb. I'm still mad about when she killed my green bean plant in 3rd grade. I mean seriously! All she did was water it and the next day...dead. I'm so dumb sorry. Anyways, he felt bad for me I guess, cause the day before he had asked me if any guys would send me flowers, and i was just like uuuhh nooooo. Then he asked why not. I was just kinda like "because they won't....." dodododo.

Mom's making nachos, and I'm soooo hungry. Guess that's what happens when nobody shows up at lunch to steal food from...I horrible.

Sigh...homework calls. I've resisted long enough...

LOST IS ON TODAY!! WHOOOOOOO!!! Adam's so right. I'm a geek. oooooohhhhh wellll....

Nothing much going on in case you couldn't tell. Toodles

Failed

I'm so mad at myself. I completely blanked during that whole stupid math test, and even though I understand it all, I got a C. Well, it's an A now, because I just did a boatload of extra credit. Nobody in the class got an A and there was two B's. Tell you anything Mr. Macias?

So I technically didn't fail. But a C for me? Doom. I just hope my mom gets the progress report with the A instead of the C. Saves a lot of unnecessary explaining. Figures, because I wrote another poem last night (this is kinda fun!) and I titled it "failed"(which I'm not posting, it sucked). This morning, evil math test results. Won't be doing that again...

I seriously thought yesterday was Wednesday. I was like "WHERE'S AMERICAN IDOL RAR!" I'm majorly addicted to that show now. And lost...*happy chirp*

Well, in Multimedia we are just doing a bunch of stuff that's complicated and unneeded. How is it that I can miss two days of school, and my only make up work is Physics Apps book work? Not exactly difficult. I could seriously come to school twice a week, one day each in all my classes and do FINE. Rather pathetic don't you think?

How come my blog sounds so utterly un-creative compared to everyone elses?

Gym. New teacher's a physco. Physics....bleh...

ADAM WASN'T CHEERFUL TODAY! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE WORLD?!?!?

I got home, an was immediately ordered downstairs to do the laundry. Since our lovely army base apartments just have one laundry room with eight washers and dryers, we have to take turns with our neighbors. Well our neighbors hate us, so I felt a sort of vindictive pleasure in filling up every single one of the washing machines with clothes. It was only then that I realized most of them were mine, and that I hadn't wore most of them. More like, tried them on, tossed them on the floor, tried on something else and counted them all as dirty. Anyway, I need new clothes. This whole wearing the same thing every week since 7th grade just isn't working for me. Even better, my mom's realized it. She was just like, "Honey, I think you need some new clothes..." and I'm like YES!! European clothes that actually FIT me for once in my life. I love our mall....

Of course, I have to wait for the "spring" stuff to get here. yick...I like fall styles. I'm a jacketaholic.

Sigh....homework time...then American Idol...because I have the date right today, heh heh.

May It Be

I cannot believe this is what my room looked like when i got here. Wow. And that's not even my whole room, you guys in Traverse. Its way bigger than that. That's just my dad's inexpert photography skills. Yeah when i got here I saw that and I was just like greeeeaaaat...I have to live with that for another month. yick thank goodness it didn't take THAT long.


ahhh another day of from school spent listening to lord of the rings music on itunes and writing poetry. I really need to work on my story instead, but I'm kinda stuck on what to do. I'm at page 110, and i was at 100 a month ago. sigh....

and don't forget the vidoe games. I'm like four hours ahead of Sam in twilight princess now. Score! I really am a geek. And a klutz. I just shattered my glasss of cranberry juice when i slipped on the kitchen floor.

I have to do my math homework soon i suppose...yick. D- I mean V days tomorrow. Oh well. Maybe next year I'll get a rose. It' just a flower after all. a pretty one but....sigh...

Ok I really have nothing to say. Here's another poem for you guys to laugh at. I'm reall bored in case you couldnt tell.

"Mirrored Minds"

Love-
Becomes friends
Simply visiting, laughing blissfully,
Understanding springs suddenly,
Eyes meeting with warming gazes,
Age forgotten-
Images renewed through hands clasping,
Regretfully churning,
Perfect Vision
-reflect-
Vision perfect
Churning regretfully.
Clasping hands through renewed images
Forgotten age-
Gazes warming with meeting eyes,
Suddenly springs understanding
Blissfully laughing, visiting simply,
Friends become
Love-

There. Time for a nap until American Idol....zzzzzz.....

Twilight Princess

Yawn...This is what I get for staying up playing video games to late. zzzzz....

Let's see...Saturday I did nothing until we went to the Ward's. We were waiting for their phone call to tell us to come over, but they fell asleep. We have SO found our twin family. We were all going to play cards, but instead started watching this movie called Vlad, which was, I have to say, the worst movie I gave ever seen in my life. Well, the worst half of a movie I have ever seen. I couldn't take the whole thing. Then me and Adam proceeded to play a killer zombie game on his Gamecube, where he was the huge muscly guy with the ax, and I was the "hot" chick with to tight pants and a machine gun. It was fun until my brother came in anyway.

Sunday...didn't do diddlysquat. OMG! Spell check says that's a word! SWEET! Sorry, anyways...

So Jacob's gone to creative connections, along with half the senior population. I went to go pick up Adam today after my mother booted me out the door, and upon exiting their house I managed to slip on the very top step of their very concrete stairs and fall all the way down. Well, bounced really. It was raining and the steps were wet! Not my fault! Except for the fact I'm a complete klutz anyway, but we'll ignore that. Needless to say, my butt hurts. Then his brother Joe felt the need to poke his head out the door and ask if a tree had fallen over. Perfect way to start off the day.

Anyways...so at school I made it through Algebra 2, but barely, because the second half of our lesson was devoted to this short fat guy explaining how a linear line works in the computer lab. Yeah, I know. The sad part is I'm completely serious. Poor Mr. Macias, I would just look at the back of the room and he would be their shaking his head. This guest guy was insane. REALLY insane. I'll spare you the details.

Then in multimedia I ate half the bar of chocolate Kirsten had given me for valentine's and after a while realized that I couldn't really focus on the screen anymore. So I went to the nurse, she took my temperature with those disposable under the tongue thingys (which are NOT accurate at all) and sent me home because I looked green. Well whoop de do for me, but it was still raining and I had kinda lost my umbrella to Adam's basement when i slipped, and it wasn't exactly retrievable. So after walking home in the pouring rain I took a nice nap, ignoring the knocking of the Culligan water guy at the front door, soothed by the peaceful sounds of the original Monty python cd blasting in my ear from the ipod headphones. Heh heh.

Which brings me to now. Where I'm extremely bored, but not yet bored enough to do my homework.

"To stay with you"

Impossible to hide from
crawling steadily forward
impossible to hide from

The slash of an ancient sword
swings down ever so slowly
crawling steadily forward

Not as age decrees, as lowly
stands tall, but time that ticking sword
swings down ever so slowly

Days go by, that vicious Lord
Time, looming o'er friendships that
stand tall, but time that ticking sword

Allows not lasting happiness
just days to become memories
loving seems almost senseless

Months together merely fancies
just days to become memories
impossible to hide from
Time, impossible to hide from
______

Ha good luck trying to make sense of that. But you don't have to. I get it and that's all that matters.

p.s. If you DO happen to understand my mind, please pause and explain it to me. I might understand my writing, but my thoughts? never.

Oh yeah. And now that my brother's actually letting me play it, I am totally kicking butt at that Twilight Princess game. You better get it soon Jamie.

The Biggest Winner

Well, today was awesome, minus the fact that MY BROTHER GOT THE LEGEND OF ZELDA TWILIGHT PRINCESS. ARGH I WANT IT!!!!!! Hee hee I'm so jealous. He won't let me play it either. Adam, we must come up with a way to...oh so subtly...remove it without him notiving. Good thing you have a gamecube....heh heh.

I had to go bowling with my brother and his friends for his birthday. I was really bad to, on top of having to hang out with them. Oh well. Tomorrow I'm going to clean out my closet. Dun Dun Dun. If I don't return to school on monday, you know why. I'll have fallen in to never returned. Or something in one of my many dimensions will have eaten me. Your choice.

I don't have any homework though, so I can actually do something with my time this weekend. Well, I have like 10 min of Algebra 2 and the same for physics but big whoop. Less than normal anyway.

The biggest loser's back on. This show always makes me want to work out. Sigh...I've got to stop eating crap food. Superbowl plus batch of way to yummy choclate cookies my mom made that I ate to many of equals...well not good anyway. Gotta go, I'm ditching you guys for T.V. again. dododododo....

Not So Bad After All

Dodododo our band sucks...oh well. The flutes rock, but the rest of us...heh heh. Hey I tried to practice I honestly did, but my dad said it was to late and it would annoy the neighbors.

LOST WAS SO COOL!! AHHHHHHHH!! I hate freakin commercials though. Two minutes of Lost, five of commercials. Repeat.

Valentine's day might still suck, but PRE-valentine's Day, eh not so bad. People are giving me stuff Lydia! Candy, uh candy...lunch...more candy...yum yum yum yum yum. I got a Snickers bar for being on Principal's Honor Roll. We have an assembly during seminar for that, so they can "brag" about us, so I don't get time to finish my physics assignment. crap.

American Idol...ahh how I love that show. It makes me feel oh so much better about my own hideous voice, contrary to you liars who keep trying to convince me I can sing. Even my dad, somewhat subtly, told me I can't sing.

World Regions next. Booooooring. I'll live though...barely.

Shame on Me

Ahhh I was actually doing so well at keeping up on this blog, but i forgot yesterday...

It's not like anything eventful happened. I went to school, had boring classes, came home, got sent to the grocery store, freaked out a bit over my math homework and watched American Idol. My brother came with me to the commisary to pick out some candy for his girlfriend. 6th grade romance...ahhh...I suppose I really shouldn't be talking. My brother might have a girlfriend, but the problem is, he got his before I got a boyfriend. And he'll never let me forget it either.

OH! Hahahaha guess what movie we are watching in world regions now? It SO told you guys it was a repeat of 7th grade and I was right! We're watching Not Without my Daughter. Fitz flashback ahhhhhh!!!!! Seriously though, I'm going to try for at least AP English next year. You traverse people are taking AP next year right? I'll use that in my argument with the guidance counsler, because nobody seems to think i can DO anything here. ugh. You guys are getting sooo far ahead of me. Nikki moved to a school where she actually is learning something. The days go by, and my brain turns slowly to mush. My AT training is falling away. I almost considered not doing my homework yesterday because it was boring. What is wrong with me???

Well, the evil math test this morning was horrible, but I don't think I failed or anything. At least, I hope. It was so funny this morning in the student lounge, because all of my senior/junior friends + me were all sitting at one table, and the two tables behind us, the huge couch area to our right, and the couch area in front of us, were completely filled with freshman. We all just suddenly looked aroudnand were like, "we're surrounded...." Then Kirtsen was like "stupid freshmen I hate freshmen bleh blah bleh with a huge grin on her face, just because she knew it would annoy me. And then everyone went into the usual rant about how it's not natural for me to be so much taller than them. ect ect.

I hope Kirsten brought lunch 'cause I sure didn't.

Lost! Thursday! 9 PM!! AHHHHH!!

I'm a geek. This season better be good.

Lunch soon...

Yesterday my Dad made me go through the entire phone bill for this month and circle every single phone call that was made by me and add up how much each individual one cost. There was like 7 pages to go through back to front! ahhhh!!! I spent 3 euro on one phone call to nikki...heh heh two hours....

16 euro all together though. yick. not as bad as i thought it would be though. bye bye babysitting money. SOMEBODY TELL ME WHAT TO GET MY BROTHER FOR HIS BIRTHDAY TOMORROW AHHHHHHHHH!!! I can't think of anything! sigh....

gotta clean something. ciao

That is sooo Gangsta'

Comic- "Doesn't Jason have some big math test coming up?"

"He does seem rather animated."

Man, the Pic turned out to blurry. Work on that later.

I'm in multimedia...dododo supposed to be doing my work heh heh. The teacher just got a new smart board, you know those giant screens where it brings up whats on you rcomputer and you can touch it like your finger is the mouse. Nifty. Lunch is in half an hour...

More than one doom is approaching. Math test and Valentine's Day. Ahhhhhhh!!! how many days left now? 8. Sigh...I'm resigned to it. Hey lydia! This will be the first year you DON'T hate Valentine's Day!! Lucky you...

The guy sitting across from me keeps going, "that's so hot, that's so gangsta..." I don't even want to know.

I had to go into the office to get my form for missing school yesterday, and Adam and Jacob had to turn theirs in. So we all walked in and found their mom, and they gave her the note their dad had given them because she isn't allowed to excuse him. Guess what it said...

"Please excuse my ugly kids. They were suffering from PTFS, Post Traumatic Football Syndrome. Thank you."

Then I began to worry, because that's the kind of note MY dad would write, if he thought about it. Maybe Brent isn't the best influence...

I need new clothes. I'm sick of wearing the same things from 7th grade, because THEY DON'T FIT ANYMORE!! AUGHHHH! Serious shopping spree needed. Unfortunately, that also requires money. With euro, even more money. I'm broke....seriously my brother has more money than me. That's sad. And I still need to get him a present. Ideas people!!

Bowling next period. Unless the gym teacher decides to go evil on us again. i actually remembered to bring in the stupid parent signature thing. I was freaking out last night because i couldn't find it, and my mom came in to help me look and as soon as she walked in, I opened a drawer and found it. I was like, "I knew you'd help...." Why do teachers make you bring in those things? Seriously, if a parent had a problem with their kid taking gym, (who would?) they would have already brought it up with the guidance counselor. Instead, over half the class loses ten points from the go because they don't get a piece of paper signed. Whoop dee do.

Gym was ok. Bowling and DDR. yay......

I had the pleasure of helping about half our physics class do our assignment today. Oh well, bonus points with Mrs. Sapatka, we all need 'em.

Jacob's actually SICK today. Not "sick" but SICK. I'm surprised. Good for him for at least attempting to go to school. I wouldn't have bothered. Where's the snow when you need it? I can't belive you michiganders are on your second snow day in a row. Or at least Nikki is. NOT fair.

Sigh...nothing much eventful here, sorry. Lydi, you need to give me creativity lessons.

Hangovers, Snow Days, and Pomegranate Tea

Traverse City....Land of SNOW

zzzz.....

I woke up at 2:30....P.M. How sad is that?? I called Adam and they got up at nine to attempt to go to school. Ha. Then I just laid down on the couch with a blanket and a pillow and listened to those two yelling at each other over video games. Ahhh my daily entertainment....what does that remind me of? Hmmm. Augh Sam I want the computer!! Go away! Heh heh.

Traverse got a Snow Day. I think I'm going to cry...not really. We've had it snow once here, and it's already starting to get lighter outside and I haven't skied at all. My cat's whining with me. Oh wait, he just wants food.

I need to go running desperately now. All that junk food...I'm never having root beer again...haha fat chance of that. Chips on the other hand, I can live without. I left all my stuff at their house. Spaceballs, the Devil wears Prada, Monty Python, my socks...

I split a pomegranate with Jacob amd Joe last night. I'd never had one before...it was pretty good. So this morning I was hunting for some tea and i found a packet of pomegranate tea. Hmm...it was good, but now I'm sleepy again.

The school just called to ask where Sam was. Omg my mom actually said he had a Superbowl hangover. At least I don't have to worry. When you stay up till three in the morning at the school secratary's house, you get away with these things...hahahahahaha.

The Bears lost. My brother is in shock. Hasn't stopped him being obnoxios, but at least he isn't bouncing around like a maniac.

Sigh...I should probably do my math homework...then i can take a nap...

General Yawns....

I'm so sleepy...being up till 2 in the morning will do that to you. Added to about three cans of root beer....ugh. And it's only half over. I almost fell asleep in Adam's room re-reading Twilight. So tired....

Need another root beer...

Well, we attempted to play monopoly. Ha, that didn't work so well. Nancy is trying to sleep, because she has to go to work tomorrow. We are all playing hooky. Superbowl hangovers....the only good thing about football besides the commericals, which here are non-existent. Maybe I'll run over and we can play video games or something...while laughing at the poor souls stuck in school of course. I get to miss out on World Regions...what a loss....hahahaha. I finally got that one assignment done though. It was horrible. Even worse than when i TOOK IT IN SEVENTH GRADE ARGH!! Imagine Mrs. Fitzpatrick with an ego. ugh.

I should probably go pretend I'm interested. Half time show's soon....Prince...that'll be different anyway...

Superbowl Sunday

No semi-creative title today. Just call it what it is. JUNK FOOD DAY!!! And I don't have to go to school tomorrow because of how late we'll be staying up muah hahaha! Adam isn't going either. Wouldn't be surprised if half the high school isn't present. At least that means I can forestall the moment where I have to do Mrs. Flavans pointless but time-consuming homework assignment. I'm not nearly the good student everyone thinks I am. Sure I get all my work done, but that doesn't mean I'm not scribbling it all down at lunch time along with the rest of the school. Heh heh.

My room is finally clean, along with the rest of the house. I actually did the dishes without complaining first. That doesn't mean I didn't afterwards, but that's besides the point.

The Wards get here in...6 hours. Man, I'm impatient. Being stuck in the house with your brother all weekend will do that to you. I need to be social or I'll burst. I think plastic lightsabers should be banned from this earth, seriously. Or siblings. Either one works.

Dono learned a new trick. How to open the windows. Not good. For you Lids, I'll explain. European windows have the handle that turns to point down, to the side, and up. If the handle is down, and the window pushed in, it is locked. If it is up, then you can pull he window and it will open just at the top. If turned to the side, it opens fully, swinging out into the room. Well, our lovely cat has learned that if it's pointing up he can put his paws up, and pull it down enough to swing the window open. If it's down, he pushes it up with his head. Something is wrong with the world.

Hahahaha this whole blog is a giant complaint. Ok...insightful thought for the day...uhh...hmm...

Maybe tomorrow.

I finished my brother's birthday present...seriously good book...heh heh...I've still got to think of something to get him. I was going to get him a giant thing of Pepsi so Dad couldn't yell at him for stealing his, but my mom shot that plan down. I don't blame her. Who want's to deal with that kid after he's consumed an entire bottle of sugar and caffiene?

Hmm...I'm hungry....do we still have any cheerios....

An Abundance of Junk

Today substantially sucked. My parents took my brother to go shopping for superbowl food, and left me at the house under orders to clean everything while they were gone. Including my brother's room.

It amazed me how much stuff he has that he doesn't need. I didn't even know where to start it was so bad. He doesnt even have a handy queen size bed like me to hide everything under. (heh heh) So first I decided to clean his closet, which was almost as bad as mine. Mine might be bad, but that's merely because of the AMOUNT of stuff shoved in there. Mine has truely earned te title of the other dimension. I proably have an ice skating rink in there that i don't know about. His is just things put away so badly that it's impossible to tell if things are hanging up or hooked on something dangling from the top. I've been organizing it for the better part of an hour. I'm on my break....

My parents go my brother a book for his birthday, and I've been waiting for it to come out for a loooooong time. So I'm completely jealous of course. Mom's letting me read it before giving to him though hee hee hee...but now I have another problem. It's really really good. Which now makes me, hoarder of all literature, want to keep it. I am a horrible sister, because instead of thinking of what to get my brother for his birthday, I'm plotting ways to remove his presents from him. Sigh...oh well.

Superbowl's tomorrow, and for the first time in my life I'm looking forward to it. Or at least, before it. I've tried to understand football i really have. My dad attempted to teach me the rules for an hour and a half last year because i had a test on it in gym. I remembered enough to pass the test, and then promptly forgot every last bit of it. I can throw a football pretty well most of the time but as for understanding it? All I see are men in suits and helmets bashing each other about. Honestly. What ball?

I asked my mom if she could put some new songs on the ipod 'cause I was sick of the ones we have, so she put like $43 worth of songs that she likes and i despise. There are...about five she picked that are good. Oh well. I sure didn't pay for them so who cares? I really need to walk down to the USO and get a phone card but i'm so lazy....

Our new gym teacher is determined to kill me I think. I'm getting over several ankle injusries, and since we were SUPPOSED to go bowling yesterday, i didn't bring my gym shoes, but instead wore my lovely brown CLOGS. And it was raining. Fun fun. So on our quickly0becoming-soaked track, he told us to do a jumpng roping fitness test. I was like "uhhhh that's kinda hard in clogs...and he told me to take them off and jump in my socks. F.Y.I. : Red track + water= two previously white unrecognizable lumps of cloth.

Sigh...chores call me...

I just spent all my spare change buying songs I like for the ipod. Time to purge the couch...

The Cost of a Baked Potato

It's really late now, and I have nothing else better to do than write more. So basically complain.

I need to run, or exercise or do something because right now I'm beginning to feel like a blob. I ran two miles during gym today and it was like my legs turned to jelly afterwards. I'm that out of shape. ugh. At this point i don't even care. If it's just kicking a soccer ball at Di Andre's head, or running after Adam so I can kick him in the shins after a nasty comment I'll take it. The funny thing is, I'm actually feeling stronger than I have in forever, because I do push-ups (or pathetic attempts at least) and sit ups and all that other junk, but there is no substitute to actually running. Where's tennis when you need it?

Right now I'm listening to Phantom of the Opera while playing gameboy, typing this, and watching T.V. There's multi-tasking for ya. Waaaaaay to many electronic devices playing at once. I need to sleep, which of course means I'll be up for at least another 60 min. Heaven forbid that I actually go to bed at a decent hour.

Nite nite

Forgiving

Today was interesting anyway, though not very eventful. I got my math homework all right, so I wasted a perfectly night of freaking out on something that I didn't even get wrong. Oh well, I suppose that's good isn't it?

My brother's birthday is next friday...I haven't got him anything yet...hmmmm....I'm such a wonderful sister.

At lunch today I helped Kirsten sell roses in the student lounge at lunch. Sigh...it's sad because people really were buying roses for their boy/girl friends, and we would just look at eachother everytime because we know there aren't any coming our way. Sigh...oh well. Who needs Valentine's Day anyway? It's just a stupid holiday made up so people will spend money.

Let the countdown resume.

Dododododo...my brother's yelling at me to get off the computer so he can play his stupid game. grrrrr...i need to finish my "stupid blog" first. What to sya, what to say...

Ok so really nothing worthwhile happened today. Except that one of our neighbors upstairs (the 8th grader) decided she doesn't hate my guts after all, and even asked how Dono was doing. That's some progress finally.

Can't wait for superbowl!! Friends and Food! Who cares about football???

Nose in a Book

Hahaha I'm getting yelled at by my friends for reading again. Why these things follow me across the ocean I have no idea. Today was substantially boring, but not nearly as bad as it could be. That's most days.

Well, before band I gave Kirsten her usual clarinet lesson, so she can replace Jacob when he ditches us all next year. Her hair is still, alas, pink, and nothing we can come up with will get out the dye. Poor girl. My sympathy is limited however, because she forgot lunch for us. Again. I'm starving.

Drama for today: David had a brownie that the rest of us wanted, so Ashley stole it and when he tried to get it, tossed it to me across the table. David of course got up to come get it from me and I tossed it back. Then we all laughed at him for not expecting that. Then he stole my muffin unless Ashley gave him back the brownie. I told him he could have it. Then he took my clarinet. Well, I have to of those now don't I. And so on and so forth, with the end result being my muffin on the floor and David devouring his brownie. Then someone came in and labeled us the only existing clique in the whole school. I don't even want to know what they are titling us.

It's been three whole days and I haven't given up on this blog yet, like my innumerable other journals. That's perseverance for ya. Either that or this is just in a cooler form, and on the computer where I spend the majority of my life.

yep that's definitely it.

Afternoon class...world regions where we spent the class period discussing sexual predators and suing people.. Well, just Mrs. Flavan talking again and the rest of us listening, or even sleeping. What a great class...coupled with the other obnoxious freshman/sophomores, the er, interesting discussions, and the gum stuck to the undersides of most of the desks, I seriously begin to wonder what the world as come to.

At least i rounded off everything with a good book. And Di Andre decided he's not feigning anger at me anymore, and is speaking again. Still haven't decided if that's good or not.

Valentines day...14 more days.....the nightmare approaches...