A Twist of Fate, whether cruel or not

Instead of going to the prom with Jacob, I end up helping him shop for his outfit so he can match his date. From my point of view, and previous hopes, that's rather messed up, but I think it showed me something.

Now is not the time.

With something less than my usual confidence, I am able to say I may be able to wait three years, and not be completely heartbroken. What would have happened? If he had asked me out, and made it the whole year, there is almost no possible way we would stay together while he was gone. He wouldn't want to. And then it would have been over. I've realized that the thing I love more than anything else is just being around him, and I don't need to be going out with him to have that. Maybe in the (very) distant future, something will happen, but for now, the best thing I can do is be his friend. Which is all either of us wanted in the first place. I'm just kinda slow that way.

So yesterday. I got home and we dashed to the PX to get my haircut for prom. I've discovered why everyone told me NOT to get my hair cut there. They don't wash your hair, just squirt it with water, and when I asked for layers she gave me a head of three different lengths clomped together so it looks like I cut it myself with a knife. However, my hair is light enough now, that it curls naturally like it used to, so that helped disguise the uneveness to the point that it actually looks really good. And if I actually straighten my hair, I thing it will look kind of jagged and not half bad. So disaster avoided on the whole, but I'm going somewhere else next time.

Then we hopped over to the PX to get jewelry, and discovered Ms. Ward there looking for a dress to wear when she chaperoned prom. So I got tons of pretty black jewelry to wear with my homecoming dress, and a gold and green braclet I completely love. It ended up this one summer dress she wanted didn't fit her at all, so I got it and tried it on and it looked REALLY good. For me anyways.The first words out of Nancy's mouth were, "You have a J.Lo butt." I think I've got that by now. She made me part my hair off to the side, which is what my mom has been desperately trying to get me to do for years, and made me keep it that way. At least I can see out of one eye now....

So I got the summer dress, which I think you would all freak over, and I'm going to wear it to school. Do do do doo do do do doo DUN........

Then Nancy asked if we wanted to go to the mall with her and Jacob. Of course, we said yes. We dropped my brother back off at the house, and then picked up Jacob. It took Adam a sec to notice my hair, but Jacob saw it. He says it looks waaaaaay better curly. I think I agree. So we went to the mall, and searched for a teal tie to match his date's dress (we had a sample) and i bought a white shrug to wear over the summer dress. We couldn't find one in the first store, so we went to C&A and found him a tie. His mom still hadn't got her dress, so we began getting her one's to try on. For the heck of it, I thought I'd try one on. It was brown and gold, and so not normally me. But I tried it on and it fit. Really well. Then Jacob said he really liked it on me, so you know what? I got a new dress. It was only about $70, because all prom dresses were on sale. i already had the shoes to go with it to, but I had forgotten about them, so I went with Jacob and tortured him for a good half-hour as we searched for shoes for me.

Nancy was still trying on dresses, so my mom gave us money and we went to go get a drink. Somehow caffiene ended up as two fruit cups, a Fanta, and kiwi-orange juice. Jacob got that, and let me try some. It was heavenly. She finally found a dress, two actually, and the hilarious part is, Jacob had picked both of those out for her two days ago when they went, and she had refused to try them on. Jacob gets the prize for best sport ever, after going shoe shopping, giving fashion advice, and having to sit in the middle of the ladie's underwear department where the dressing rooms were. Oh yes. And missing America's Next Top Model. God, that show...

So I have a dress, Nancy has a dress, jacob has a tie, and almost all is well in the world. Prom is tomorrow, and my dad is going to be driving five girls back and forth from the dance, though he doesn't know it yet. Muah hahahahahaha.....